Starting anew.

After 4 years, I actually did it again; changing the blog URL. So I decided to go with the plan that I've actually had for about a while now. I don't know what has gotten into me—maybe partly because of my personality itself, that I just can't stand reading my old blog posts (though I could have just deleted them and move on), and also maybe it's because the old URL itself that it's hard for people to actually pronounce, recognize and remember them. Don't get me wrong—sigeuneolx has already become a part of my life (though I did not post that often), and it was actually hard for me to let it go. But for the sake of having a peaceful mind, I decided to make a change. I tried to make it easier and sound friendlier this time though.

So here we are; welcome to the Of Coffees And Muffins!

This is actually taken from one of KARD's Oh NaNa's lyrics, where J.Seph spat out the famous "Like Coffee and Muffin" and actually became the couple name for him and Jiwoo. So I thought it would be nice to have it as a blog URL, though I'm not sure how long it could last this time.

There are lots of things that I want to talk about. In fact, I've already planned it out inside my head. But I think it will need some time in order to organize them and to actually turn them into a legit blog post. I still can't promise you with frequent updates though. I'll just try my best to do as much as I can for the upcoming year.

Till then.

Dear love, happy birthday.

It's been almost a year since I first saw you. And even until now, I feel sorry for being so late. I should've checked you out when you first debuted (I knew that you've debuted though), but being me who only has her eyes on one group at that time, it's hard for me to open up to a new group―especially a band.

But when I saw you, God, I felt regret for not recognizing you any earlier. Like―how could I missed this talented man―and the whole group itself for almost two years? This is the one that I've been looking for my entire life. The music itself, the lyrics, everything. It was all that I've ever wanted.

You debuted in a band who had hardly received recognition from the public as well as the fandoms due to not formally introduced by the music broadcasts, but instead, you've been going around doing busking and concerts for over a year, gaining fans slowly and proceeded by being a permanent guest on a radio show. You presented with songs and covers almost every week to months and you've got nothing but praises and compliments every time you did them―until it earned you a title:

The band who you can trust and listen to, the growing band―DAY6.

You were on the verge of breaking down, as you couldn't barely see yourself in the upcoming years. But you chose not to give up, in fact, this has made you and the guys to strive harder, to do better. You've been constantly growing for the past two years, starting from formally doing music shows on your first comeback, releasing two studio albums compiling songs that you've released every month in 2017 as well as going to places and events to perform and growing fandom.

It's been a tough year, right? Composing and writing lyrics for at least two songs and releasing them every month. You've been constantly challenging yourself every time you write. It must've been hard for you, to work under pressure―but amazingly, you've done a very good job until the end. Even perfectly―if I must say.

You've been through so much―even from the start. From your guitar role being taken away (I still love your bass role though) to changing your part from dancing (and rap) to vocals―your consideration is something I've never thought I could do if I were you. You are that amazing. I love how strong you are, and when you care for others instead of yourself. But it's time for you to take care more of yourself, hun. You've been giving away too much that you didn't even have some left to yourself. I want you to be happy, love.

To the one who lits up my world; you, Kang Younghyun, are one of the most amazing people I've ever met. I'm sorry for not being there when things were rough. I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you, for not being there with you and the guys from the start. Thank you, for loving us, for not giving up. Thank you for being there when I needed someone, and for being a part of my life.

Happy 25th birthday, love. I love you.

Of coffees and muffin.

Have you ever felt like you want to do something but you can't do it because you might waste your time on it, and you just sit there contemplating whether you should do it or not, but in the end, you still waste your time by thinking about it?

I do. In fact, I just did.

For three days, I just sat in front of the computer, opened my blog, and literally stared at it.

These days, I find it hard to concentrate. I contemplate, I can't stop fidgeting around, and I feel like my soul has been wandering around with no direction. Just now, I opened this post page to start writing and suddenly as if a light bulb lights up in my head, I decided to make a WordPress blog instead―kira acah macam nak beralih ke sana la. And yes I did make it, but then again I stared at my WordPress blog, thinking whether I have made the right decision (which I have yet found the answer) and in the end, sigh―here I am.

Don't worry, I'll find a way to end this confusion later.

A lot of things happened in these past 5 months (yeah sure) and I really wanted to share with you guys, but being my personality, the words got stuck in my throat and I actually haven't figured out how to vomit it haha.

So um,

• I was assigned to Hospital PUSRAWI for a month for practical posting. The experience I had there was seriously different from what I had when I was posting in Taiping. There, I had to be extra cautious as there are patients with high-ranking professions and VIPs, etc. But in return, I received great knowledge and skills on how to handle patients and love from all the staff there. Sadly we didn't get the chance to take many pictures due to stress with work.
• I became a part of our university's first Charity & Color Run event committee (I was on the design team) and it was one of the best things that had happened to my life. I get to meet new people and be a part of something so great, I felt very useful for the first time in a very long time. I seriously had a great time working together with them during these past 6 months.

• So last week, I went out with my two best friends whom I haven't seen in a very long time ever since they moved away. Although we haven't met in many years, it didn't feel awkward at all. We talked like we've been in contact the whole time.
• I met my two childhood friends at my friend's gathering. When I first got there, they were like staring at me and I heard something about me being neighbours with them. So I stared back at them and after a long time, I realized that they were my best friends all along. One was staring non-stop though, maybe he was half shocked-half amused to see so many changes going on me haha.

Yes, my childhood friends were guys lmao.

• I also met my primary school friend who was once my neighbour, after 8 years. She's still the same person I know, only softer and sweeter.

So that's just about it!

And, I'll be heading to Segamat and Slim River starting next month for my next practical posting for two months. Guess this means I'll be getting busy again or maybe even busier since this marks the final year of my diploma studies so I can't promise you guys more updates. Again, I'll try to find some time to post and maybe, even try to find some inspiration?

Oh yeah, I didn't have a specific goal or resolution for this year. But if I were to achieve something, I would try to finish reading this;

Pardon the cover. I bought this last year but never really had the chance to read it, sigh.

Note #1: I find it hard to speak in English so I'm sorry if you find it awkward while reading this.

Note #2: I think I'm going to change my blog URL again and this means; losing followers. This correlates with the title above /winks/

Note #3: Officially a My Day and a HiDden KARD yay!

Till then.