When the clock strikes at 12 (KST), people from all over the world joined forces in order to celebrate a very special day in their lives. Even though we're thousands of miles apart, living in different parts of the world, even though you can never see us in person, but I know, we know that we are always together as one. And just by that, it's enough for me.
I know you wouldn't read this, and I don't mind.
Happy birthday, Byun Baekhyun.
It was a tough year, a lot of things happened, right? I know it's been hard for you; the members leaving one by one (the first one was around your birthday), your dating scandal, etc, but just so you know that none of this was your fault. I don't exactly remember the exact date when Kris disappeared and left but I'm sure it's somewhere near your birthday since your comeback was a day after your birthday. I knew you felt hurt. All the members did. All of us did. And then, yesterday there's a rumour surfaced again, just a day before your birthday. Because of this, please, don't ever think that you're a curse, or bad luck, because you're not. Because everything happens for a reason.
I never once regretted loving you. I never regretted liking you first even though I haven't even met the other members at that time. I made the right choice by not giving the other members a chance to show themselves to me. When people asked what is it about you that I love so much that I just can't see the others, I honestly didn't know how to respond. Was it because of your voice? Your humour? Your looks? I'm not pretty sure myself either.
But then, it struck me. I just love you, for you. It's not just a love between a fan and an idol. I love you as a normal person, as in a normal guy. A guy where you can find on the streets and if you bumped into him you would apologize and can carry on a conversation without having to worry about anything. You are that normal to me. I never expect that you would mean so much to me. Because I have loved someone before you, but it didn't work out so I left him right after I saw you. But now, although I like someone else too, I realized that once you came back, everything just seems so clear. That there's no way that I can replace you easily, even if the other guy is just as superior as you.
There are millions of reasons why I chose to love you. And sometimes I wonder why would I love someone that I couldn't have. You stood up so strong and bright, it hurts me every time I see people hating on you just because you're happy. It's just sad that you pretended that you're fine when you're actually not. I know it hurts you so much just because you're in love with somebody else. I know you've been trying hard to bring back our trust. Despite the hate you've been receiving, you would still be the first one to defend us if people say things about us. I know you love us so much. I know that you care for us. But now I think it's time to think about yourself, B. And I hope that she loves you the way you deserve to be loved. I hope she treats you well because she's holding onto my world.
I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry that I couldn't be there for you when things were rough. Thank you for loving us. Thank you for not giving up on us. I can't promise you forever. But I promise you that if I'm still into this, you would be the only one that I love. I've been there before, so yeah, that I can promise you.
Happy 24th birthday, love. I love you.
