. Friday 25 May 2018 .

Ever feel like you're running out of breath and you feel like drowning but you don't know how to save yourself from sinking much further? Have you ever felt like giving up on everything and just running away from all of your problems?

Well, I do. For the past two months and still―right now.

I've been constantly running ever since I finished my practical posting last April―we had 6 hours of classes every day; 3 hours for Women's Health and another 3 for Sports Injury. Repeat this cycle 4 days a week, for 4 weeks. The lessons were being shifted forward due to Raya so we had to finish everything before the celebration day, so we didn't have much time to study everything. Assignments, case studies, practical rubrics, tests, were all done in the same month, despite the lack of hours. Until now, I'm still amazed at how they managed to find time to cram everything hahaha.

So back to the topic; I'll be graduating in a week!

Well yeah technically there's still a convocation in September or something but nonetheless, I'll be finally free from this hectic schedule in one week's time! But here's the problem;

In order to graduate, I have to go through an hour of a professional exam; with a real case, a real patient, and two real examiners; one internal (our lecturer), and one external (physiotherapist from other hospitals). I have to spend the hour examining―subjectively and objectively, prescribing therapies and exercises, and documentation. The cases are random, they could be a musculoskeletal case, cardiorespiratory or even a neurological case. If you're having like bad luck, they could actually throw some paediatric cases in it too!

So here's another problem.

We had to draw lots in order to know which day and which group we will be assigned to in this pro-exam. And heck―I even picked the first day (which is on the 28th of May)! I was like "This ain't happening, this ain't happening, I'm not even ready!". I internally cried that's for sure. All this rush came in―and I panicked. Because God, of all days, why do I have to be the first one to go through it? I didn't have much time to study all of the cases as well as the theories and I'm afraid of messing up during the professional exam.

You see, this professional exam means a lot to me―to all of us, as this serves as the benchmark in order for us to pass the whole course. If we messed this up, we didn't consider the patient's safety, we will be failed and we have to extend another semester; going through another 3 months of practical posting, as well as another professional exam. Although we still have the final exam and the Sports Injury OSPE after the professional exam, we didn't care much because hey, if we pass the professional exam means we already passed 50% of everything! So we didn't concern much about the latter part of the final course ehehehe.

I felt like giving up, to be very honest. I felt like running away from everything. But then I remember that no matter what I do, I still have to finish this course, and then get a job, and pay the loan. Sigh.

So if you―the one who is reading this, if you have the time, please keep me―and my friends in your du'as. Pray for me to never let go of my composure once I stepped into the room and to always remember every step of the procedure during the whole hour of the exam. They would mean the whole world to us, especially me.

P/s: I'll come back with more updates once I passed this last hurdle, insya Allah!

Till then.

Road To Graduation!